Pink-Ilusion

Its like I have a group of people inside of me and I hate every single one of them,I tried to make them dissapear but then I became empty so now their all back and nobody seems to like them

It's just like magnets.. minus and plus are atracted but 2 minuses not. and we are 2 minuses. we both depressed, we both think to much. I wnat someone to jump around with, do silly things, color each other's hair, get wasted, talk about bullshit and just have fun. without feeling i have to do something, without hearing I'm no okey, without being have to tell every thing. I want to do what I want without anyone's voise in my head. If I speak- I say thing you don't wanna hear. If I don't speak- Im acting like a fucking log. If you say I can't give you what you want.. what the fuck are you want from me? god damn it, why can't it be jus

Now when I finally got a normal good quality camera I will do more photography then drawing and digital art, im considering to open a new deviant aspesially for the photography because it a big ass mess around here. my long fake nail are gone, I wave no cash to take care of them so fuck it ill grow my own. Im in process of streching my ear to 6 mm (maybe more), me and my friend alona having a competition and the loser buys the winner a beer, but it not really about the beer, its about waving the ear around saying "haha i win- you lose!!" Such a long time I didn't felt does butterflies inside my stomach... now i fell like they gonna come o